After a lot of time spent angsting between Stephen (Primeval) and Rory (you know where) I had a huge spiel all set about Dr Who and the death/disappearance of Rory. It was a heartbreaking end, I couldn't stop crying, I was left with such a sense of loss. I was going to talk about Rory's influence on the show, the way he stood up to the Doctor in Vampires of Venice and told him the grim truth about his motives. I loved the sense that he wasn't a companion for the sake of adventure or because he wanted to help the Doctor, but because he loves Amy and wants to protect her. Rory's death was traumatic and sad and stupid and I wanted him back.
I was going to talk about all that...but...
Even as I sat down to talk about it, another death came to me, one that I witnessed over 20 years ago and have never forgotten. We don't see the death on screen. What we see is Brendan and Chloe playing in the garden, then fade to black as Molly Jones closes her eyes. We never see her again.
More than 20 years on and I still see the scene so clearly. My hands are shaking as I type this.
You were missed Molly. You really were.
And on that note, I'm out of here. See you on Facebook.
( And there it ends. Yes, I've missed a few, but the time has gone to say goodbye etc. To paraphrase, my other choices would have been: Favourite Series Finale - Season One Primeval; Most Annoying Character - Alan (Two and a Half Men); Best Quote - "I do not like The Godfather. It insists upon itself" (Peter Griffen, Family Guy) A show you plan on watching - Ashes to Ashes (watched it, dropped it, found out the wrinkle, want to pick it up again); OMG WTF ending - Stephen's death in Primeval (what the hell? You can't do that); Best Pilot Episode - BSG. (Only pilot where I didn't think "Most shows get better as they go on. We'll give it a go." Hooked me straight away.) First TV show obsession - The Tomorrow People; Current TV show Obsession - Two and a Half Men. (and EastEnders. Yes, I'm hanging my head. Oh, and if I were doing this now, I'd write my favourite male character as Alfie from EastEnders. I forgotten just how wonderful he is. Best man in the Northern Hemisphere. Yes, Lee owns the Southern.)Collapse )
- Noise factor:All Summer Long - Kid Rock. Just for the great big fun of it.
I will, however, be jumping ahead and doing one more 30 Days. It'll be the last one.
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- Noise factor:The sound of the kids getting ready to party.
Beate Klarsfeld. I only learnt about her two weeks ago but now her name has popped up a few times since then. Klarsfeld embodies Superwoman for me. She's a mother, a wife, an activist and a Nazi hunter. I'm in awe of this woman and what she has achieved. Everything I've seen has focuseed on her search for justice, but I'd want to interview her about how she managed to balance her life between her family and her activities.
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I come back to find everyone has gone. If it weren't for my Running Club, there'd be no-one on LJ at all.
Where are you all?
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I have to poll a whole lot of people for my Food for Thought assignment. Please take a few moments to fill it in for me. Thanks.
Who was the MAIN influence on your food choices when you were a child?
Who influences your food choices now?
If money were no object, would you change your food choices?
What is your food choice and what would you change it to, given the opportunity? For instance, I eat according to what's on special, but I'd like to be a flexitarian (mainly vegetarian with occasional meat) or a locavore (sourcing food close to home)
If you're a parent, would you say you're the MAIN influence upon your children's food choices?
How old are your children?
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- Noise factor:Stuff and Nonsense - Split Enz
30 Days of Television #21 Favourite Ship
I'm going to take this at face value and talk about my favourite ship. Okay, no I'm not. Really, I don't care. People get excited everytime a new TARDIS is released, or Moya has a baby or the Love Boat comes in to port (or maybe that's just me). And, of course, we have to put up with the obligatory fifteen minute up-close-and-personal of the latest NCC 1701-with-or-without-identifier. Look, as far as I'm concerned, it's a ship, a vessel, a container/coffin for carrying the cast around. It's not actually the point of the story and I couldn't care less about it. Okay, if pushed, I like the Borg sphere. Can we move on?
Now, favourite RELATIONship?
Easy Peasy Japaneasy.
Lloyd Simcoe and Olivia Benford.
Yup. That's right. Him, the brilliant physicist and she, the doctor married to the FBI agent who forms the main cliffhanger at the end.
Lloyd and Olivia. Olivia and Lloyd. Oh, the arguments Lee and I had about these two. They were supposed to be together. Most of the timelines seen by Gabriel McDow sees them together. I bought it. Lee didn't. To him, their relationship was adultery of the worst kind, that they were entering into an affair, knowing it would hurt other people (side note: Dylan and Charlie accept it as natural, so really, who's it hurting? Mark? So what? Olivia begged and begged Mark to move away with her and he refused.Any body could have done what he did, sticking up post-it notes all over the wall, but only he could have saved his marriage. He brought it on himself.) To me, the relationship was natural and by the time it happened I was ready. And besides, there's nothing to suggest it was consumated. They were two people who should have been together and in the end, were.
Okay, now, if we really are talking travelling through space and/or time, (or oceans, whatever) then my vote goes for Jaunting Belts ala The Tomorrow People. They really are the coolest way of getting around, ever, and I want one.
( I've made with the cutty so you can skip over it. And yes, I know adultery is wrong. Absolutely. It ruins lives, it changes personalities etc etc. Yep. I get it. No arguments from me. But I'm not changing my mind so don't even try to argue with me on the comments based on anti-adultery feelings. Whatever. Yawn.Collapse )
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End of the Year Reminiscing
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
Became a grandmother. Started my teaching degree. Passed a maths course, with a Distinction.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't make a resolution last year but the systems I set in place for this year pretty much failed. I lost a lot of weight last year but had started putting it back on by May. I applied for and got into uni, but bronchitis made it impossible to continue in second semester. I don't know if I'll do resolutions this year per se, but Lee and I always have a meeting at the beginning of the year/month/week to decide what long/mid and short term goals we've got.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? This year Aiden brought home a pregnant girl. We were wary and had our issues with the situation, but by the end of the year we became grandparents to Luc. I got to see the birth and love both Georgie Girl and Luc as much as if they were my own blood.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
5. What countries did you visit? None. Again.
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010? A job that I enjoy and that furthers our goals for our family.
7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 11 November - Luc was born. March 5 - Started uni. 28th March - Cassandra came to live with us.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Finishing semester one of uni with Distinctions. Being the best support person for Aiden and Georgie that they could have asked for.
9. What was your biggest failure? Not helping Cassandra get her life back on track after a particularly bad relationship.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I had severe bronchitis that lasted a month. The rest of the family followed, one at a time, so it was a pretty awful time for us.
11. What was the best thing you bought? My uni handbag. It's big and it's red and I love it.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Aiden. He liked a girl and wanted to go out with her. She discovered she was pregnant but that didn't deter Aiden. He still started a relationship with her with a view to the long term. He has been there for Georgie and Luc and has become a real father to the baby. Lee, because he was unhappy with his job and set about finding one that would pay well and make him happy. Now he's the Arts and Culture Officer for Rockingham.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Mark, for the abuse he heaped upon my little girl.
14. Where did most of your money go? Bills, bills, bills. With so many people living in the house, the costs just keep mounting.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? The birth. I was so touched when Georgie asked me to be there. It was wonderful.
16. What song will always remind you of 2010? We Didn't Start the Fire by Billy Joel. It's been a year of events and I've spent most of it feeling out of control.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:i. happier or sadder? ii. thinner or fatter? iii. richer or poorer? Sadder, fatter and poorer. So much poorer. But I have lost a few kilos in the past couple of weeks, I'm looking for a job and the disruptive influence has gone elsewhere.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Writing.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Arguing with Cassandra.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? Spent it quietly with my immediate family. Boxing Day was with my brother and his family.
21. Who did you meet for the first time? Georgie Girl who is now a part of our family.
22. Did you fall in love in 2010? I'm still very much in love with my beloved Lee. It's been a tough year and Lee and I have had our ups and downs, but we've stuck with each other through the hard times and are still solid to our core.
23. What was your favourite TV program? Ahem. Toddlers and Tiaras. Yes, it's awful but it's like a train wreck. You can't help but watch it. Georgie and I make sure to sit down together and watch it everyday. Also, The Armstrong and Miller Show, a british sketch comedy show that has become a family favourite (not the littlies though).
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Mark. What he did to Cassandra was deplorable and I have to admit that I wish all sorts of evil to rain down upon his head.
25. What was the best book you read? The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald. What started of as research ended up as a much loved read.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? That Justin Beiber sucks just slightly less than Lady Gaga.
27. What was your favorite film of this year? Inception. I had no interest in watching it but Lee wanted to see it and I couldn't be bothered arguing. Turns out, easily the best movie I saw this year.
28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 41.
29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Completing semester two of uni.
30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010? Jeans and t-shirt.
31. What kept you sane? Lee. Uni. Lunches with Yvonne and Linda, my old school pals that I met up with for the first time in 25 years. They have been such good friends to me in what has been an emotional year.
32. What political issue stirred you the most? Shrug.
33. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010? That I can't save my children, only guide them.
34. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year
"Hypodermics on the shores, China's under martial law
Rock and Roller cola wars, I can't take it anymore"
We Didn't Start the Fire - by Billy Joel
We faced big problems, we faced little problems and by the end of it I was totally wrung out. 2011 is going to be about Lee, me and the little kids. Aiden and Georgie are striking out on their own, Cassandra's living a life far removed from my own and Blake's focus is his mates and work. I no longer have any real need to contact their father and it's now time for us to focus on the Battersbys.
And that's the way it should be.
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- Noise factor:Tender - Blur.
I went to my doctor today and he confirmed what I've felt for quite a while. I'm over-weight. We discussed what might have caused it and I told him about my calories out (ie exercise) vs calories in (ie food). And this is what we discovered. I go to the gym 3-5 times a week. I mix it up with cardio and weights. However, I eat. And I eat. And I eat. I eat as much as Lee at dinner. Then we have bullets. Sometimes wine. Often milk and cookies. Okay, it's usually skim milk and Weight Watchers cookies, but we do usually eat the whole packet between us. Luckily I do exercise a lot or I'd be a lot bigger than I am.
What we really discussed was the fact that I'm depressed and binge-eating. Which makes me depressed. We have to break that cycle. We talked about options and strategies and set goals. He wants me to lose 4kg in the month. He will see me then and we will discuss how I went.
What really shocked me was how I took the news. The surgery is right next to Lee's work so I went and saw him straight after. He asked how it went but I was too embarrassed to tell him. I waited about ten minutes then phoned him and told him. This is ridiculous. Lee and I have discussed my weight before. We've discussed my eating habits before. Lee doesn't care about my weight, but he's loving enough to listen to me go on about it for hours. I knew he wouldn't censure me or tell me what I should/shouldn't do. But still, I was ashamed to tell him that the doctor had now medically diagnosed me as overweight.
Of course it seems silly now and I'm more embarrassed about my initial shame.
What really helped was talking to someone who listened to me talk about my depression and how frustrated I feel over my growing size. We talked about my desperation and the issues that go with my size. Sure my breats are FABULOUS but my back and shoulders are killing me. I want to be the me I was when Lee and I met. I want to be happy, healthy and not needing icepacks at the end of my day.
Yes, I'm still embarrassed, but at least I'm now using it to get my life back under control.
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So, it's been a while. Given all that's happened in the past two weeks, I've updated Facebook - a lot - but have forgotten all about LJ.
- Well, first things first. My baby is 6 today!!!!!!!!! No no, I don't do the birthday thing, but still. 6! He's not a baby anymore. Okay, I said that when he turned 3 and 4 and 5, but I'm sure that I'll mean it this year. Hmmm, it's 3.30 in the morning of the day he turns 6 and he's just come to me with a bad dream. Maybe he is still a baby. For one more year. Connor just amazes me. Really, he shouldn't be here. With everything Lee went through losing Sharon he did not want to risk me to a pregnancy. But I nagged and I nagged and I nagged (I'm very good at nagging) and finally he gave in. Then we went to Albany for a weekender. We had such a great time with the touring and the spa and the dinners out and I found myself changing my mind. A baby would really cramp our still-new relationship. So, we discussed it again and I admitted that I really didn't want to have another baby, that I wasn't in a good place physically or emotionally and that I'd like us to stop trying. Little did I know that by the end of that weekend it was already too late...
Yes, it has been hard work. Connor's had two bouts of eye surgery, and he refused to sleep through the night until he was 2 (not that he really sleeps through now. Most nights have at least one 'bad dream' that involves getting into our bed) plus we had those early
3 4 5 years of hyper-activity when he just wouldn't stop moving.. But cramp our relationship? No. All couples have their problems but Connor is most definitely not one of them. He is our joy and our wonder and I feel blessed to be his mother each and every day.
The Ginger Ninja
Love is: me and my boy
- And talking of babies. We have Luc! Luc Aden Jeremy Triffitt was born 11/11/10 at 10.59 pm. Now, for some of you that's called Armistace/Rememberance Day but for us it's called Lee's birthday. Yes, he was born on his Grand-dad's 40th birthday. Georgie was in the middle of making raspberry tarts for dessert when it became obvious that she was uncomfortable. I took her to hospital and six apparently easy hours later the boy was born. I got to be thre for the whole thing and even managed to watch him come out. It was the most brilliant thing ever. I could go on and on and on about it (and I have) but for now I'll tell you this much. I love that boy. He is my grandson, no matter what biology says.
Georgie, Aiden and Luc minutes after the birth
I am so proud of Aiden and Georgie. They are amazing parents. They get a lot of strange looks because of their age, but no one can fault what they do. Georgie has managed to balance being a mum with exams while Aiden has sat at the school everyday looking after Luc while they wait for Georgie. The school has juggled G's timetable so she's only had one exam per day and they let her leave the exam to feed Luc when the bottles have run out. They are brilliant.
I'm also immensely proud of Lee. Despite initial reservations about the pregnant Georgie's impact on our family, he has shown himself to be physically and emotionally supportive of her and the baby. He can get Luc to sleep within seconds when the rest of us are ready to give up on him ever going down. He is calm and patient and loving and you can see he really does love Luc.
- Onto Aiden. My baby has graduated high school! After a rather tumultuous year he didn't achieve the marks he needed to get into the course he wants to do at uni, but I'm okay with that. For now. No, scratch that. I am really worried. He is so smart and should be doing the science that he wants to do. I myself know that once you have a baby, it becomes a lot harder to complete uni. I'm on my second attempt and just had to defer due to the bronchitis that hit our family at the beginning of the semester. I worry that he'll fall into some low grade office job and get stuck there forever. I just have to keep plugging at Aiden to make sure he becomes the best he can be. Or else advise him to be the stay-at-home parent while Georgie studies and becomes the professional.
It's a bit dark, but it's a picture of Aiden carrying an upset Connor in his jumper like a joey in a pouch. I saw him do this and thought 'Yep, he's going ot be a good dad.')
- And finally, Nano. I hit the 45000 word mark yesterday and only have to write about 900 per day to finish. I'll be done by tomorrow night. Yay me.
- Actually, no. One more thing about my amazing husband. Lee has had the busiest month. Not only has he acted as Municipal Liaison for Rockingham/Mandurah during Nano (during which time he organised 3 Nano cafes where we got to write, listen to guest speakers talk about writing and have lunch with other Wrimos), he also organised the Rod Garlett exhibition (winner of last year's Nyoongah Arts Award) plus organise this year's Nyoongah Arts award. Plus he's writing a short-story writing course for a writer's centre (I'm not sure if I'm allowed to talk about it and he's asleep so I can't ask, so ssshhhh!) :) And he's become a grand-dad. This November will stand out as one of the busiest and most rewarding ever. Life, for Lee, really did begin at 40.
The rites of passage. Lee teaching Aiden to change a nappy. And this was one of those first day yukky black ones. Eeeww! And they both still do it. No, not together.
And now, I'm off to make Green Apple and Brie muffins for breakfast. This is mainly for Lee's sake, to celebrate a day off during an otherwise event-filled month. Go me!
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So, I've managed to complete my word count for the day. While I'm pleased by the sheer number of words I've written, I have to say I am really not happy with the work itself. To put it simply, it's rubbish. The plot is flimsy, the characters are derivative and the setting little more than a series of white rooms in two white buildings.
What I'm trying to keep my focus on is the mere fact that I am writing. This year has been brutal and I've been at the receiving end of a lot of problems. Writing has gone by the way side recently and I seem to have stalled with my output and my acceptances. Therefore, I'm trying to remain positive about Nano, simply because it has me sitting on my butt working again and that's a good thing. No, this novel will probably never sell, but at least I'm working on it.
However, I did manage to sneak a peek at Lee's novel "Father Muerte and the Divine" this morning.
It's every bit as good as I knew it would be. So readable. So very very readable. I can't wait to read it complete.
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